Every first day of the year, I have a ritual of setting an intention for the year by answering a series of questions. And here’s one that I wrote on Jan 1st, 2016.
What would I like to be the biggest triumph in 2016?
To live a life that I truly want by following my intuition and not because someone said so or because the thing is something I have to do (by society’s standard or whatsoever).
And I’m quite pleased to report that I’ve been doing exactly that.
I have been living the last 6.5 months by asking the question “What do I want?”. Or to be exact, “If I had all the money in the world right now, what do I want?”. And every time I asked the question, the answer had been to see the world and to continue building a closer relationship with my family. I realized that everything else become secondary to those 2 things.
I’ve been blessed to have been able to do both of them.
So far, these are the cities/ regions I’ve stepped on my travels (counted for every new place I stepped on): Yangon, Bagan, Mandalay, Belitung, Bali (twice), Solo, Ciwidey, Rome, Asisi, Monaco, Nice, Lourdes, Salamanca, Burgos, Fatima, Lisbon, Maribaya.
That’s 18 places.
And I’m going to London in less than a month! How exciting is that?!
And after 17 years living away from home, I now feel comfortable being at home and I’m closer to my family every single day. I’m thankful for the love I’m surrounded by and I’m also thankful for all the little arguments and fights I’ve had in the last few months, without which, the relationship can’t evolve.
But life is about following the breadcrumbs and evolving from one breadcrumb to the next. I have again felt the wind of change. I’m now slowly putting more focus on pursuing that dream of living by the ocean and building a business and community of love. Do I have an idea how to do that? Not yet. But it will come and I just have to set sail and follow the wind.
I’m still very much jobless, which I find totally awesome but others sometimes find it weird. I still have savings and I’m enjoying my life to the fullest. I’m continued to be provided for in extraordinary ways.
I may not be working but I feel the most abundant in my life. I have gotten a scholarship to an online program and learned so much from it. I got so many free books (all from legit publishing house sources)! And I always get small little things that I want — Like yesterday I was just staring at my eyebrows and toying with the idea of using an eyebrow pencil (which i haven’t used before – i’m a totally low maintenance person and completely love my eyebrows the way they are, I just thought it would be fun), and guess what, I got a gift of an eyebrow pencil today! Yep. totally provided for.
And not just that, for the first time, I feel that I actually contribute a lot to others and society! I realized, despite all the joy, I felt quite useless in most of my past jobs (which is quite insane cause I did truckload of things) because I didn’t value what I was doing. But now that I’m actually unemployed, I’ve done many things I’m proud of. From simple graphic designs, to making meals, to assisting others with their travels. Abundance truly comes from giving what we value.
I didn’t get that travel writing scholarship that I applied for, but I’m even more pumped to write and write everyday. After all, the best way to learn something is to just do it! And I’ve been offered to write an art essay (like a curation text) for an exhibition (which makes me totally excited). And I’m in the beginning talks to be an art correspondence (sort of) for my city – or whichever city I end up living. Not sure where this is going yet, but it’s amazing how it all started with a simple readiness and a belief in my own ability.
I’m also getting more financial clarity in my life, which is something considerably new. I started working on attaining clarity about a year ago and I’m more clear on what I have financially, I know exactly what I’m spending on and where and how much my investments are and I know the type of financial freedom I desire and I’m slowly working towards that.
So let me end this by sharing the one word I picked to describe my 2016: Attraversiamo.
Yeah, I got that from Eat Pray Love. I absolutely love that word and I felt that it’s perfect for my life this year. It’s an Italian word that means “let’s cross over” or “we cross”.
I’ve crossed over oceans (literally and figuratively). I’ve crossed over boundaries and my own hurdles and I continue crossing over many roads, rivers, bridges, straits, and more oceans.
So, dear ones, attraversiamo!