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Back to the Beginning

I’ve been quiet this past month cause I’ve been going inwards into my own cocoon – reflecting and learning. Perhaps brewing my being for something bigger.

The Great Terry Prattchet wrote in A Hat Full of Sky, “Coming back to where you started is not the same as never leaving.” The whole month of July has felt like I’m going back to the start in many areas of my life – but i’m not exactly coming back to the very beginning. I have gone so far from where I started. I’m coming back to learn even more.

The more I know, the more I really don’t know. The more I learn about things, the more I have to unlearn many other things.

On the physical level, I’ve been made aware of many imbalances within my body – on the surface level is how different my left side is from my right. The most challenging thing was probably to remind myself that I am perfect the way I am, even if I’m not equal on the left and right side. The un-evennes in my body was created to balance other aspects of my life in these past 3 plus decades of my life. And now that I’ve been made aware of it, I’m given an opportunity to come back to the start and re-discover Balance. It is an opportunity to bring in more stability in the way I move and live.

I’ve become my own personal trainer and physical therapist. And I’m thankful of the opportunities I got to experience and apply what I learned on myself first and foremost. By experiencing things, I can better help others.

And with that, I’ve felt like I had to come back to the start in terms of how I teach my yoga classes. I’ve been blessed enough to share yoga with older ladies. Their range of motions are very limited, and that got me to be creative and really look at their needs.

And this time, I felt like I was made to go deeper into that – To come back to seeing the basic functions of human bodies and find ways to create better stability and mobility in the body through simple exercises. That takes not just body awareness and intelligence, but a lot of introspection on how we move and function with the aid of our bodies.

I’m also coming back to the start and re-connecting with what is Love. What does it mean to love and be loved? All the dark shadows of love have been coming up to play – things like attachment, possession, and all those good things that stops us from really loving.

I feel so much love and at times it’s aching for someone to pour it to and to express it to. I’m navigating what does expressing an emotion and having it be heard mean to me. As someone who is so passionate about life, the expression of life – thus the emotions – means a lot to me. But how exactly?

I don’t have the answer.

And that’s okay.

I’m coming back to the start to the essence of love.

Awareness, Introspection, and a Heart-centered Intelligence are my trio of friends in learning about myself and my life and being a better person. And I came back to the beginning with these 3 friends. We’ve started another journey and I look forward to discoveries and new friends along the way.

So, if you’re ever confused or needed to make sense of this life, come back to the beginning, and I’ll meet you there and introduce you to my 3 friends.


Till then,


Not too long ago I went for a vacation with my family to Belitung. For those of you who don’t know where Belitung is, it’s here. It’s on the western part of Indonesia. With the island next door, Bangka, it forms the Banka Belitung Province. And in relation to the larger landmass, it’s closest to the province of South Sumatra.

One of my (and everyone else’s) favorite tourist attractions there are the gorgeous turquoise sea and white sandy beaches of the small archipelago on the northern coast of Belitung island. These islands are really small and as far as I know, no one lives there. Tourists go to these islands on short day trips to see the beauty of the islands.

Pulau Lengkuas. One of the islands in Belitung's archipelago. Belitung islands are known for its large granite rocks.
Pulau Lengkuas. One of the islands in Belitung’s archipelago. Belitung islands are known for its large granite rocks.

Belitung is not as developed as that really famous Indonesian beach getaway spot, aka Bali. Tourists may find the facilities lacking as it might be more difficult getting things. International or larger chain corporations are not allowed to set up shop in Belitung cause the government want the local mom and pop industry to grow. So you won’t find any McD, Starbucks, or 7-11 here. People might have problems with that, but this makes me love the island more.

Other than the main city of Tanjung Pandan, where the airport is located, most of Belitung is made up of smaller towns and villages. In between these living areas are expanses of greens. Some are farm areas, some are swamps. They make a nice drive going from one side of the island to the other, which takes about 2 to 2.5 hours.

Unfortunately, a lot of the land is ruined from tin mines that have been abandoned. Belitung and Bangka islands produce about 90% of the tin for Indonesia. And (I just learned) Indonesia is one of the biggest tin exporters in the world. A lot of the tin mining in Belitung has stopped; it’s now done mostly in Bangka. However, the mine sites are just abandoned. These abandoned sites ends up filled with water and became still lakes, which doesn’t do much for the ecology of the areas [someone please correct me if I’m wrong]. If only the sites are closed properly, the land could’ve been rehabilitated into water catchment area or farming area, or even residential area. My brilliant childhood bestie, upon seeing the sunken oval shape of the minefield remarked that someone should turn it into an amphitheater, which I think is an excellent idea. Anyone want to set up a theatre company in Belitung? 🙂

Solar Eclipse My family’s main reason for visiting Belitung was actuallyto see a complete solar eclipse. And on 9 March, we witnessed the moon passing the majestic sun. And for a short moment in their embrace, the land turned dark. I felt the air around me tingled as people watched, some in complete awe, some in trepidation, as the sun and the moon stood in alignment on the sky.

There’s something extremely mystical experiencing darkness during the day. I felt so thankful to have watched that rare phenomena.

I had many favorites from my trip to Belitung, but the most memorable one didn’t come from the beach. It came from our trip to Museum Kata. A museum of literary and words opened by a local author Andrea Hirata, who claimed fame after his novel Rainbow Troops became an international hit.

In the timespan I was there, I got goosebumps all over my body. I knew I had these goosebumps cause I had stepped into a place full of magical creative energy. And at the same time, I found the place that I want to build one day.

One of my dreams in this lifetime is to create a creative holistic space where people can come and be creative and share their creations. And this space is all that. It has beautiful artworks on the wall. It has tons of books, with a little reading nook. There’s a small stage where they hold open mics, poetry reading, jam sessions, and all sort of performances. The museum was also created to encourage the local children to read and write their own stories.

The colorful brick buildings or Museum Kata by Andrea Hirata. Beyond those pillars are the space where they hold poetry jam, music jam sessions, and many other performances
The colorful brick buildings or Museum Kata by Andrea Hirata. Beyond those pillars are the space where they hold poetry jam, music jam sessions, and many other performances

For some people, this colorful brick compound might just be another tourist attraction, but for me it’s a place of inspiration. It spoke to my heart and I told myself I’m going to have that space one day, to inspire people to create and express themselves through creativity and the arts. And at the same time use this to connect with themselves and each others.

May you continue to be inspired in this life through what you do, through the things you see, through the people around you. And may you continue to see the wonders of this beautiful world through these inspirations.

Thanks for reading. If you want to see photos from the trip, you can find it here. And if you’re planning to go and need recommendation or help, I’ll be more than happy to do so. Plus, I can hook you up with the travel company that my parents used. (Oh and btw, I’ve been helping people with their travel. It seems that Travel Consultant is my new occupation. 😀 )